Love; its real meaning

I thought he loved me?  How could I be so blind?

I asked myself these questions over and over again. No answers came to my head.

All I see is the pain. I am so clouded by it right now. I feel betrayed.

After wallowing in my regrets for some weeks I decided to ask myself more questions.

What did I do wrong? What could I have done better? Why did he just walk away? Couldn’t our written plans and visions for tomorrow keep him no matter our challenges? Why did he give up on us?

Then more questions. Did I really and genuinely love him? Did I express it to him enough for him to be secured in my love? Or was I just selfish thinking about me and not how he feels?

These questions made me seek to understand what love really means and what I have been doing thinking I have loved other people.

My search led me to the true God who alone loves truly; in his expression of love for me, He said he loves me while I was not having the capacity to love him back. He loved me while I blamed him for all the challenges I faced. He loves me faults and all and he showed that love to me withholding nothing.

I could not comprehend why he loved me so much but I believed it. He then led me to what it really means to love. In his book he clearly stated that my eloquences, prophecies and speeches would make no impact except it be from a heart of love. That means no matter my accomplishments if I do not love I am just a vacuum. No relevance, no impact.

That caught my attention, 

Then he went further to just lay down what love is in simple terms.

Love is Kind

Love is Patient

Love is Gentle

Love does not strut

Love cares for others than self

Love endures all things

Love never dies

Love believes

Love takes pleasure in the truth

Love does not keep record of wrongs

Love does not force itself on others

Love hopes

Love lives

Love lays down its life for friends

I could not deny it. I did not love him because I really didn’t understand what love is. 

No wonder it is the greatest commandment.

My feelings got the best of me. Lord help me!

As you have loved me, help me love others and help me love genuinely. As simple as the word looks, it is the root cause for any effect we see. If we are loved genuinely our responses to situations will be different. If we are hated, its result will show.

Can we love differently as our father loved? Our world will be a better place for it.